Scary Stuff

Usually I am so positive and energetic. But today or rather this weekend I was caught off gaurd. I am not myself really. I was at my parents cottage this weekend and it was beautiful to look off over the water and watch the scene before me. It was nice to see every detail and watch the sun reflect off the water.

However, it got me thinking...What if this was the last time I ever saw this scene? What if tomorrow I wake up and I can't see? These things are scary for me. I have been so scared lately about my eye and what is going on with it. I have not been very forth coming or honest with people but I am up to three very potent pills a day to try and regulate my spinal fluid and essentially keep the fluid away from my eyes. The spinal fluid is back. I wish it was not the case but it is. I don't dwell on this very often, frankly, it is to scary to put much thought in the seriousness of my situation.

But despite all of the health stuff life is still good and I am so richly blessed, just today a bit scared at what will come next! Whatever it is I am not worried really. I will take it as it comes!

It could always be worse :)