Sinking

Today I was catching up on my much needed blog reading. I have been so busy that I have not had a chance. Well, I read a blog by Zombie, called H2O...This is an excerpt of what he wrote:

When I am happy and things are going well, I am not thinking as much about how much I need God to keep me afloat. I get confident and proud, then I sink. It never fails, I sink every time. I think Peter would have sunk every time too, at least until He saw Jesus risen, He seemed as the rest of the disciples to be really changed after that. I suppose I would be too. I think God values the fight, because it makes us recognize our reliance on God to sustain us, to save us from the waters, from the flames. I think there is mercy in tears shed for God. I think the questioning of my faith and testing has brought good things, if only because it forces me to meet my demons head on. I could suppress them, I could go on not trying to be transparent and unexposed. I could play my role and shoot par. I could float by and never be so tormented. But I choose to fight. I choose to step into the water even though I know I will sink sooner rather than later, but with the joy and comfort in know Jesus will pull me up again stronger and closer to Him. I pray for the testing of my faith. I pray for more brokenness. I pray for all of the pain that will bring me closer to Him.I don't regret the drowning and I don't think for a moment Peter would either because Peter learned something about Christ that night. He is trustworthy. And faithful even when we take our eyes off of Him and begin to sink.

This hit me to the core and described exactly how I have been feeling. God is so faithful even when we are not. Lately, with all the health stuff and work stuff going on I have been throwing temper tantrums to God. Just getting mad at my situation. Today, after reading this blog, I realize that it is in these times that God is faith and shows himself to us. He always carries us through all situations. Even when we don't want to go through them He is still there. God does things for our best interest and I truly believe it breaks His heart to watch us go through these situations. But the things we learn in our most sunk times is when Jesus shines the brightest. I would not give that up for anything!

Today's Blessing Report: Thanks Zombie for hitting the nail on the head and allowing God to use you to touch my heart with His truth!