All for a Reason

As most of you know I work with an organization called Anthem of Hope. This organization is dear to my heart to help those with chronic or terminal illness find hope in a hopeless time. Well, recently I have been having some headaches and black outs of my own. They believe my spinal fluid is elevated again. It has been a good run so far, I have been free of pain or symptoms for five years. Now the docs are going to try medication to regulate my spinal fluid.

The last couple days have been very discouraging. Not being able to find out the cause of the fluid after a ton of tests. I have not been in the greatest of spirits. However, today I have come to a realization, with the help of my boss. I am starting to learn that you can not give what you don't have. And my desire is to help others who are struggling with illness.

Well, my perspective is changing to joy in the middle of this situation. I am not happy that all this stuff is happening but I am OK with going through it because my experiences will only help others someday in the future, I am sure of it. In the middle of this trial I chose to have hope. Hope that someday God will use me to reach out to others in similar situations! Because of these experiences I will in turn have empathy for the next person. And that brings me great joy in the middle of this trial :)

Today's Blessing Report: I am so thankful for my boss, Irma! She inspires me everyday :)